Monday, September 13, 2010

our birth story




[note: I refer to contractions as “waves” or “rushes” because this is how they felt to me.]

I expected you early and you came oh so late- the day before I was to be induced in fact. Luckily your big brother, who was born 30-something hours after my waters broke, had prepared me for a long wait. I had my first rush at around 9pm on a Saturday, each one was a good 12-15 minutes apart, but I knew from the first that these were no braxton hicks. Your Dada and I watched,Stranger Than Fiction, called the hospital and told them to expect me at some point during the night and then and went to bed. I knew this time it was important to conserve my energy and rest. I was amazed at how deeply I could sleep in between the intensity of my rushes. When one began I would wake up, breathe through it and go right back to sleep. By 6am the next morning I had had enough lying down and was eager to get things going so I suggested that Dada, North and I go for a brisk march along the beach. It was a cool crisp day, but the sun was shining. I stopped every so often through a wave and focused on my breathing and above all else, staying calm and relaxed. When we arrived home the boys headed to the park while I stayed behind in the safety and comfort of our bedroom. I felt sleepy and dopey, so I decided to have a little nap even though I knew this might keep things going slowly. This was the best decision I could have made. I actually listened to my body and what it needed instead of trying to figure out what I should have been doing to help labour to progress. When the boys came home I nibbled on half a sandwich and drank some rasberry leaf tea and hung out in the bedroom for a little while longer. After North’s nap, I decided we’d better go for another walk if I wanted my rushes to get closer together and if I wanted my waters to break any time soon. So we set off to the playground on our last outing as three. Every so often your brother would ask, “What you doing, Mama?” as I leaned over the pram and huffed and puffed. Dada told him you were coming soon and that I was just feeling a little funny in my tummy.
I felt inspired to pick a few flowers on the way, as many wise women had suggested to use them for visualization. I trekked around a footy field a few times gripping onto the little stems for strength and gazing down at the colourful petals. With every wave I imagined my uterus blossoming and growing. At times I truly believed that this technique was working and I could feel myself opening up. When we got home everything felt more intense. The rushes were much closer together, perhaps 5 or 6 minutes. It was now 5pm on Sunday. Dada gave North some dinner and got him ready for bed while I knelt on the floor against the bed slipping and sliding on my knees for the duration of each rush. Long, deep exhales helped me to get through each wave and I often reminded myself to rest in between rushes. I calmly welcomed each contraction with the knowledge that they were bringing you closer to me. At one point I panicked and began to wonder whether I could give birth without an epidural or some form of pain relief and then I remembered Ina May's advice about the power of words. In the privacy of my bedroom as I writhed around the floor I said outloud to myself, “ I can do this, I can do this.” At around 6 o’clock my waters broke. We called Grandma and Papa and told them to hurry. We tucked North in, gave him a big kiss and told him he’d have a special breakfast in the morning with your Grandparents. They walked in as we shut his bedroom door. I slid down against the wall and breathed through another big wave. They were now only minutes away from each other. We got to the hospital in under ten minutes and walked up to the labour ward, it was 6:45pm. The midwives were waiting for me when we arrived, questions were asked and then after what seemed like ages they checked my progress- I was 6 cm dilated and during contractions was stretching as far as 8. I was emotional, moving from calm lucid moments to a wild animal-like state. I tried to ask the midwife how long she thought I had to go, as I was again doubting my ability to go on. She asked me if I had the urge to push and I replied desperately, “Kind of... but I don’t know how.” And right then as another wave took over me I let out a monstrous roar and my whole body took over and I gave a huge push and out popped your entire head! The midwives were now scrambling around trying to prepare everything for your arrival in time. With the next contraction your shoulders came out, and the next your legs and feet. I only pushed three times. You were born one hour after we arrived at the hospital, at 7:55pm.
You rooted your way to my breast right away and suckled for over an hour. I pushed out the placenta with ease and two hours later I had a shower and ate an egg salad sandwich. I had no tears, no stitches and no wires or cords attached to my wrists. I have never felt so alive, I have never felt more proud of myself, and I have never felt more feminine. I felt so connected with our Mother Earth and to every other Mother who has ever given birth. Thank you my daughter. Thank you so much, for giving me this gift. It will stay with me forever- you have taught me a great lesson- to love and trust my body, to listen and learn from it. I truly wish that every Mother could experience childbirth the way I did that evening, because after all is said and done, it really honestly feels so right and so good.

xo

33 comments:

Vic said...

Wow, amazing words! What a humbling, enriching experience. Thank you so much for sharing it with us. Vic xx

arwen_tiw said...

Beautiful beautiful beautiful birthing! Wonderful words for a beyond-words joy. :)

Jgee said...

Good on you, what a lovely story. I agree entirely, that this type of birth experience is so profound. Like you, I had never felt more woman, such a lovely feeling that I wish I could bottle! x

Ooty said...

Beutiful! Thanks for the share =)
she is adoreable!
xo

Bianca said...

Such a beautiful birth. You really are an inspiration.

xB

LJ said...

WHat an amazing birth story. Thank you for sharing this with us. You have inspired me for my birth in a few weeks.

Erin said...

Beautiful story :) Many congrats!

Amber said...

Thank-you for sharing your wonderful birth story! I too felt amazingly empowered after giving birth to my second child - having techniques (just like yours) to mentally stay in control was the key for me.
Congratulations on being an amazing Mother! :)

Sandrine said...

What a great "life lesson" to learn to trust yourself and Believe no matter what!Thanks for sharing.All the very best she is just adorable xx

ange_moore said...

COngratulations on the safe arrival of your gorgeous girl! And I love reading your birth story - thanks for sahring.

Mrs B said...

What an amazing birth story. It gave me tingles just reading it!!

Leslie said...

what a beautiful birth story.

Christina said...

It's so wonderful and inspiring to hear such an amazing birth story. How truly wonderful for you and your lovely family. Thank you for sharing this with us.

xxa

angelina said...

awesome. what was the birth weight?

Obaitori Spiritual Mothering said...

Beautiful, magic birth story. The birth of trust & Love. Enjoy your babymoon. Katie x

Ola said...

That was so beautiful. Thank you for sharing this, it is so wonderful to see women so connected to themselves, mother earth and each other. Blessings to you and your little flower child :).
xxx.

Tricia said...

Beautiful :-)

Thank you for sharing. It is so important for us to share positive empowering birth stories.

Umatji said...

so beautiful - thanks for sharing!

Anonymous said...

From Lisa-
That was such a wonderfully inspirational story. The birth of my first child was by comparison truly a nightmare. Reading your story makes me hopeful that the next one will be much better.

manda said...

thanks for sharing your magical birth story. it truly is awesome isn't it. x manda

Kristina said...

Thank you for sharing! I am preparing to birth my first child naturally in December and I often have moments of fear, wondering about the pain and whether or not I can do it without medication. I know that I can but sometimes I doubt my body's ability... or rather, my mind's ability to cope. Your story gives me inspiration. I will remember to use my words and to remember that each "rush" is bringing her closer. Thank you!

vegeater said...

so inspiring. I'm praying for a similar experience when my little one comes sometime in the next 7-13 weeks. Glad you had such a fulfilling labor and birth.

cityhippyfarmgirl said...

Love it. What a wonderful birth story. So, so pleased for you...a perfect birth.
Ina May love her too :-)

Catherine Lowe said...

What a perfect journey for you guys, im so pleased for you. how exciting, how enriching how awesome!!
LIFE oh life :)

Sarah Stewart said...

How lovely to hear such a happy birth story. Made me smile. :) x

Little Ted Canvas said...

I saw you'd written this post the other day but I was saving it for a quiet moment to myself...now I sit here with tears in my eyes, what a beautifully written story, there is nothing like child birth..my mum always said that, and she is right, it's the most incredible feeling in the whole world, we are blessed.

Gina said...

I'm thrilled for you that you were able to birth your daughter as you imagined you could. It is so lovely and a privilege to read positive birth stories. Beautiful. Thanks.

Catherine said...

Thank you for sharing your empowering and magical birthing experience with us. What a special moment welcoming your beautiful daughter into the world and everything you had hoped for came true.xo

abbie said...

This is so beautiful. Congratulations!

the textured leaf said...

I think I just tapped into deeper feelings as I sit here in tears. What a beautifully inspiring birth account. Thankyou so much for the gift im feeling this moment, Meagan, x

Maxabella said...

Magic. Well done to you and Indigo. A powerful, raw and grounding experience to read about. Congratulations. x

dillpickle said...

Thank you! I'm attempting a VBAC this time, even though my chances are pretty slim. It's really encouraging reading your story and remembering that once things start to happen, I need to let them roll at their own pace rather than setting an agenda.

Congratulations, and I'm so pleased it all worked out the way you'd hoped!

Anna x

Rhiannon said...

I remember reading this when you originally posted it, but after you post this evening I came by for another read. It sounds like a beautiful birth, it is what I really one day hope to experience.
xx

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